ok so here it is...boys suck....3 day rule sucks...exams suck...I WANT FREEDOM!!! heres the dialog btw me and gerardo when we finally starting talking on myspace!!!

ME (last and final messege to him...i decided that if he didnt reply back to this one then FUCK HIM).nada es lo mismo en el dealership ;( y no se quien va a ayudarme con mi carro? ahora solamente estoy levandolo pero cuando voy a necesitar ayuda con otras cosas, quien puede ayudarme asi como tu? lo siento para los otros mensajes. ojala que podamos mantener en contacto. quidate. TQM 

it took him 2 weeks because he didnt logg on for 2 weeks but last monday i randomly decided to go wash my car at dealership and his friend was there and saw me and smiled at me. and how ironic is this...he logged on right after i washed my car...and read it didnt reply back right away but did around 430. then i had a missed call at like 7 pm cuz i was napping with a no number haha. but i dont know if its him or not. he hasn't said anything about that yet.

GERARDO

sup shorty!!!

i know you miss me. sorry i had to leave, but is for the best. if you still need anything you can call me here at the other shop. 847.362.9200.
anything you need.

keep in touch.

g.

ps how did you find me here????


OH he used to call me SHORTY a lot at dealership and i have it next to my default pic  now on myspace ;)

ME

hi hun,

nm, studying for finals now cuz they start this friday ;( i wanna shoot myself in the face ughh. i can't wait until they are over!!

hows the new job treating ya? can i come for car washes/oil changes from time to time there? cuz i know some dealerships dont like that if u didnt buy the car from there.

as for myspace i was randomly browsing and saw ur name but i didnt know it was u until Deb left u a comment ;)

*ivelina*

GERARDO
hey doll,

i dont care where you bought your car, i will be more than happy to take care of you. anyways this is still "fields infiniti", just different location.
good luck with finals. STRAIGHT A's!!!!!!!


see you later.

g 

ME
aww thanks hun u r the best ;) ill definately stop by after finals for a car wash. except ull have to give me directions again cuz i forgot them.

and speaking of directions, im having a "going away" party at club select on the 12th. if you want, i can give you the directions. you should def stop by.

*ivelina*

oh and we r playing the 3 day rule for the last ones!!!  he logged on again today and read the messege but still hasnt replied back and its driving me crazy.I HATE IT!!! SOMEOME MAKE THAT RULE  DISAPPEAR PLEASE!!!!!!!!!!!

but ya at least we r finally talking now woohooo ;)

OK SOMEONE NEEDS TO HELP ME PLEAZE!!! IM SO SICK OF MY FREAKING MOTHER. WHY CAN"T SHE FREAKING GET A LIFE ALREADY AND LET ME ENJOY MINE!!! BAHH!!!!  I DONT KNOW HOW TO START REBELLING THIS IS SO ANNOYING. AND ITS ALL BECAUSE SHES PAYING FOR MY FUCKING COLLEGE UGHH!!! OTHERWISE I WOULDVE BITCHED HER OUT BY NOW BAHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! THIS FUCKING SUCKS!!! ARGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I REALLY WANNA GO CLUBBING AGAIN GOD FUCKING DAMN IT. I CANT WAIT UNTIL I GRADUATE NEXT YEAR. IM GONNA MOVE OUT RIGHT AWAY I DONT CARE HOW HARD ITS GONNA BE FOR ME. UGHH. FUCKING BITCH!!! I SWEAR TO GOD. OK IM DONE SORRY. JUST HAD TO GET IT OUT SOMEHOW.

SOMEONE SAVE ME PLEAZE!!!!!

Well i'm back. How is everyone? Not that anyone comments on these journals anymore haha. I am doing good. School stared already and i'm so proud of myself. I haven't slacked off one bit yet. and my friend Aleksa got me this kick ass binder from staples i think and its so helpful for organizing i love it hehe. this semester im making myself do work and its actually working because i have free time on mondays and tuesdays at school and i am able to do a lot of work then hehe. cuz all my friends have break from 12-1 and then have class, but i have to wait till 230 for my freaking spanish class which is so boring as of now. hopefully it'll stay boring because i really need to get all As this semester. i think i can pull 3 As and one B hopefully!!! wish me luck hehe. otherwise same old shit. now that school started i'm not able to go out during the week at all cuz my freaking mother is a biotch. its her bday tomorrow so i prolly shouldnt be saying that but ughhhh i can't handle it anymore!!! i wanna move out so badly.

oh and she wants to go to the DOMINICAN REPUBLIC for my spring break march 10-18th and its 700 bucks per person all INCLUSIVE and shes letting me bring a friend with me. SO SOMEONE PLEASE COME WITH IDK WHO...I JUST DONT WANNA BE ALONE WITH THEM ANYMORE AHHHH!!! SAVE ME!!!! maria i think u r my only hope?? PLEAZE!!!!!!!! LOL. its gonna be so awesome!!!

and ya thats pretty much it. oh wait im obsessed with the latino guy from my dealership again. HES SO FUCKING HOT. i had to change my air filter and anti-freeze on tuesday and we talked for like 10 min and i wanted to leave him my number on the paper work but it goes to the receptionist bahhh. so i couldnt. but irina was like what u do is leave a note for the recepionist and tell her to give it to him. and i was like but he doesnt know my name haha. shes like its ok be like this is from INFINITI FX35 black 2003 and plate number hahaha. and aleksa was like awww thats gonna be so cute hahaha. so im thinking of doing that. we'll see, cuz im also obsessed with ivalin again the bg dude from ruse. ahhhh. i need a bf so badly. i miss having sex HAHAHA. sorry i just had to say it. i need more practice too lol. ok anyways ill shut up. oh and the guy from my moms city that i hooked up with this summer keeps telling me that he misses me so ughh i dont know what to do anymore. i need to find a bf here grrrrrrrrr. ok well thats it for now. leave me some love. hopefully my bitchy ass mother will let me go clubbing this weekend. muah!!!

HMMM new year seems to be going pretty well....at least i managed to get laid last nite after my bess hardware post holiday work party hahaa....SO UNEXPECTED!!!

im prolly going to yard house tonite again with the guys hopefully it wont be weird cuz it was a little weird at work today lol.

ok yah thats all i have to say!!! FINALLY!!! LOL i know im such a slut idk haha.

ok so me and my dad decided that my mom is officially gonna be a bitch until she dies...im sorry know that this sounds mean as hell but its the truth and i can't help it. i had to say it somewhere. i mean come on, for one fucking time at least say that you are proud of what your daughter is doing or of what your husband is doing. if something is done really well she still finds shit to say about it, and if something is done like shit, she bitches all the fucking time.

i mean just because when she went to fucking school and supposedly got all fucking As and is supposedly smart as fuck because shes a lawyer doesnt mean that everyone can fucking be like her. so i know that my GPA sucks, but i also know that i have a year and a half left to bring it fucking up. and i will prove that bitch that i can do it, but i know that she still wont fucking say anything bc i actually asked her 5 min ago, i was like what if i bring it up to 3.5 she was like i wont say anything i gotta see it with my eyes first. i mean i know that this is not my bestest try yet, and i know that i can do it. shes just a fucking bitch for life and i feel so bad for my dad. i swear to god once i graduate im done with that bitch. im moving out as fast as i can, and u know what im sorry to say this but im gonna tell my dad that he doesnt fucking have to stick with her if he doesnt want to anymore. i know that he loves her very much but its gotten to the point to where he cant fucking handle it anymore and i can see it in his eyes. and on top of that my uncle on my dads side is invalid(retarted) because he cant hear very well or speak very well. and my grandma just told my dad that hes sick again and now my dad is worrying not only about work all the time but about my uncle. hes calling my grandparents everyday asking them how he is. and i think they might need more money for surgery and my fucking mother will prolly say oh no they always want to much money they can't have more...ughhh shes so fucking selfish and annoying. i swear to god ive never seen anyone more selfish in my entire life. i wish that she can fucking change for once....so that we can all live our life without stress. ughh...ONE MORE YEAR AND A HALF PEOPLE. ahhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!! someone save me!!! i love my dad so much i dunno what i would do without him. well he can be a big asshole sometimes too but hes a sweetheart compared to that fucking bitch. grrrrrrr. i mean i love her so much too but ughhh why the fuck does it have to be so fucking complicated.

so i told her what my grades were last week, and she flipped out, and then they mailed them to my house today and she saw that my GPA went just a little under 2.50 and seriously started bitching so much. i mean i know i got it how many times does she have to repeat how im not worth anything in her life, supposeldy shes just wasting her money on me(college). i swear to god im so gonna prove that bitch and once i do im gonna say a big ass GOOD BYE and if i ever have kids, im never letting her near my kids ever!!! cuz they are not going to suffer like me.

i just wish that my dad wouldnt have to suffer so much because of her!!! god fucking damn it. im sorry guys i just had to let all this out. not like anyone is reading it anymore.

ok now for the good news, i finally decided to tell the guy from her city that hes been in my head 24/7 lately and that i like him a lot now, and that  i dont know if this means anything right now because hes there and im here. but i told him and i asked him if it does mean something, i will be very happy. because he really is a nice guy. im sad that i didnt get enough time to spend with him over the summer. im glad i met him though. too bad its not another guy from my dads city...i wanna piss my mom off by marrying someone from his city haha. bc supposedly everyone in his city is trash. ughh i hate her so much right now!!! ahhhhhhhh!!!!!!

ok well thats it for now...tomorrow is xmas eve yay. i still hve to work though from 9-4. bahh. oh well more mula for me. ok people if anybody reads this please leave me some love to cheer me up hehe.

oh and p.s. i am most likely gonna stop clubbing for a while, like till summer maybe. so that she wont flip out again. but i will be going out to cafes and shit. so i wont completely lock myself in hehe. and ive decided that drinking is actually not all that so im not gonna drink that much either. ill have a few drinks from time to time but no more getting drunk except for new years. that bitch cant stop me then cuz i already paid 150 bucks and im not wasting any alcohol for it haha. but yea i really need to bring up my GPA bc i want her to go to HELL for what she is doing to me and my dad now.

ok im gonna stop now. adios. muah!!